Let's pretend that I didn't take a year long break from writing here.....ok? Ok. In all fairness I have plenty of excuses as to why I didn't. The most compelling being that I went about three months without having internet in my new apartment. But I also just had a busy year in general. I got a job, then moved to Seattle, then was promoted to a better job which required a crazy amount of hours for a few months.....then I broke up with my boyfriend of five years. Which is probably the craziest part of this whole year. But I feel like now I'm finally in a headspace that will allow me to actually focus some attention to this little corner of the internet.
I think that writing here will be a good mental exercise for me. I've found that without the constant of having someone to talk to everyday, my brain can get to be a fairly jumbled mess of my own thoughts. Which isn't a bad thing, necessarily. It's definitely given me some time to think about where I'm at in my life currently and where I want to go in the future. But it's also been scary realizing that for the first time in my adult life I'm the only one in the equation. It's at once completely liberating and completely terrifying. From here on any compromises I make will be with myself only. Decisions will be solely mine, the good and the bad ones.
So I'm going to try to make the most of this year. I'm turning 25. I have a full time job. I'm single and living on my own in a city I really like. I want to travel again. I want to invest in myself more. It's daunting, having so many options open to you all of a sudden. Especially because I have the tendency to become paralyzed by choices. But I think if I can embrace the changes and live a little more passionately, maybe even a little more recklessly than normal, it will completely worth it.
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